2nd August 2013

Come Back Again

“…do the things you did at first”
Revelation 2:5 (NIV UK)

Most times, when I see my mother, she does not know who I am. That part of her cognitive memory is all but gone. I wait for a response from her, but none comes.

On a recent visit I felt my heart leap inside me when, for a brief few seconds, she joined in singing a song with me. They play background music in the lounge of the home where she stays. This time it was Doris Day singing chirpily “Que sera, sera!” I sang along, as I do often, and, unexpectedly, my mother sang out perfectly in tune, “sera”. I was so excited. “Let’s sing more”, I said, holding her hand. But she had gone again to wherever she goes to, off to her own reality where others can’t go.

Sometimes, when we lose faith, we retreat into our own version of a godless reality. Perhaps our spirituality has been paralyzed due to personal trauma; or we have become angry with and distant from God because of what he has not done for someone close to us; or we’ve grown tired and weary and faith has just petered out. Just like my mother does not know me, so we don’t recognize God anymore.

In my mother’s home there are residents who don’t have many visitors. It’s understandable: there are pressures people have in their lives. My mother is blessed because family members go often to see her. We have not given up on her. We still look for moments of recognition when, as we see it, she seems to drift back into our world. God also waits with great anticipation for us to come back, similar to how the father keeps looking for the prodigal child to return (Luke 15:20).

My mother cannot come voluntarily out of her condition, but we can choose to return to God. Perhaps we need to allow ourselves to join in an old tune, a well-known rhythm of our once active spiritual life. You hear a scripture, a word of a song; a passing memory comes to the surface; you recognize the beat. That’s what John was referring to when he wrote the message to the church in Ephesus. Do the good things you used to do when you first responded to grace. Experience the joy of re-found faith. God has not given up on you and he is always connected to you – what you have to do it let yourself re-connect with him.

Don’t fight it: let yourself come back.

Help me to pray this prayer, Father. I need to come back to you but I resist it. Help me to be with you again, to come back to the peace and security of your presence.
In Jesus’ name.

Study by James Henderson


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James Henderson is the National Ministry Leader for Grace Communion International in the UK and Ireland.  You are welcome to attend any of our Church congregations located throughout the UK.  For details of your nearest local congregation, check on our website, www.wcg.org.uk under the ‘Churches’ tab, or ring +44 (0)1858 437099.

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